Hope As Always

God works in mysterious ways...trust me thats so true...
When your lifes a complete mess...and for some reason you have your confidence in certain things that they wont change...they are actually some goodness in your life...
But what do you when you find out that all that goodness is nowhere to be found?all of a sudden that constant in your life...which kept you going..which kept you happy...has disappeared...

What do you do when you have no words to explain your feelings? what do you do when you have no clue how to sort the mess your in?All these questions seem to be driving me mad....why cant i just leave it all alone like i do with everything else....
Apparently..i seem to think that if i do..i'll lose somethin recious..somethin i'll never be able to enjoy in my life again...
What do you do when...the past is somethin only you seem to remembr....only you seem to cherish....
I dont expect answers...but i hope for my goodness back...
When you miss something you used to have...and when you dont know how to get it back what in Gods Heavenly name do you do?!
living with just hope...it comes to a point where you feel as though theres no use in hoping...