Journal 6

Here’s to all the jokes we’ve cracked, Here’s too all the tears we’ve cried, Here’s to all the arguments and fights we’ve had, Here’s to all the birthdays we’ve celebrated together…Here’s to all the memories we’ve created, because now whether any of us like it or not, want it or not…we have to accept the greatest change that’s ever gonna take place in our lives…
Yea, CHANGE…the change of people, the change of lives and the change of routine…
Okay, so I know that we honestly cannot do anything about it, but then how do you cope up with that sense of emptiness, helplessness and loneliness…coz YOU know, how long its gonna take, to get back on track, to a life that’s ALMOST like the one you’ve gotten attached to, gotten used to, felt completely comfortable and yourself in…that’s complete crap…isn’t it?
I mean you can never have the same great love twice…so isn’t it the same here…you can’t really have that same life again, can you?
Why am I writing about it? Satisfaction…closure…relief…God knows, I just need to get it out…no ones really willing to talk about it…because it hurts too much…
But I cant keep it in…its even more frustrating…because then it’s like life itself is ‘rubbing it in our faces’ that there’s absolute nothing, that anyone of us can do…except just sit and watch, life take away so much of what’s a part of us and it being completely oblivious to, how its gonna affect us..and I hate that!
I mean there has to be something right…? Something we can do…I don’t know what…but I can’t just watch anymore…
Everything’s happening too fast to even do anything about it…times passing so quickly, the lil moments in life, you wish you could pause and cherish for as long as your heart pleases, you cant…within a blink of an eye you made friends and now you’ll probably never see them ever again…
Why is it so unfair? No one prepares us for this…
We are prepared for everything in life aren’t we…? We go to school to learn so that we can create a great life for us…we learn to be patient during problems…we learn to be the bigger person when it comes down to arguments…we learn to always have faith when we think we’re failing…so in away we are prepared for the worst of little situations….but…why aren’t we prepared for the biggest change of all…the one that will probably breakdown the most strong hearted person and cause so much of pain…the one for which finding a cure would seem impossible…?why aren’t we warned not to get too attached…why aren’t we warned not to fall in love…why aren’t we warned that in the end…its all taken away from you..and you wont be able to do anything about it..why is it that we gotta learn THIS the hard way…?

I get it…it’s a part of life…its just damned unfair…I get it, you will always have the greatest memories…but I would be kidding myself, if I said that, that was enough, cos its not! how can it be…?
I get it…just cos theres gonna be a distance, the relationships wont change…but still…theres this change…all of a sudden a distance of more than thousand miles…and all of a sudden theres a change in your life routine…the faces you loved seeing every morning you don’t get to see anymore…

Theres no point in saying everything will be fine..its all gonna be okay…cos you’d just be lying…cos you know inside your not gonna be okay…you know that things wont be fine…because whats gonna happen might be part of life…but it’s a part of life you just don’t want to be a part of!

True…theres a lot we learn out of it all…who our true friends are….and most of all that, time is of the essence…its not something you can control…its not something that is abundant…its not something your gonna have forever…so we learn, that every moment needs to be lived to its fullest…there shouldn’t ever be regrets…cos now…you realize the value of life, love and time…and how all of them…you have no control of…