Jaw Dropping; Awe Inspiring

Monday, February 22, 2010

Journal 5


When your in search of the truth (for anything in general) and through the journey for it you learn so much...
once the truth unfolds ryt in front of you...and it is something you didnt probably expect...or maybe you did....or maybe you never
really wondered exactly what it would be..cos its a situation where the result didnt matter,you just needed it for closure...
but once its there...once you've found it...what happens when, theres an involuntary emotion of just 'stepping back' from everything,
'shutting out' from everything...what happens when the truth is something you can definitly handle...but your conscience
completely disregards it...
Because you see, probably some of us have come to realize that certain times of our life..our mind and heart become two different
beings...they seem to have a mind of there own..
So now its your conscience and your body...your body moves on...like nothings really changed....but your conscience is fully aware
of the change thats occuring..or going to occur within you...the force thats gonna pull you away from something you've stayed
attached to for sometime now...and as days go by..you drift away...you automatically shut yourself from that something(it could be anythin)
and again your body moves on...now konwing somethings changed..but frankly cant really do anything abt it...cos now..your heart...
has made a decision for you....and you cant change it...cos honestly you cant control your heart...

Now one by one...certain things in my life...get shut out...i grow distant from...and now im okay with that...because...it dusnt really bring
any harm to me...and seems like a good solution to certain problems...and theres less pain involved...

CLOSURE..why is that some of us..without it...just cant seem to end certain issues of our life??
Probably because once you've got it...theres thhis inner peace..and your mind finaly has this sense of relief...and ur unanswered
questions are finally answered and that issue is now settled..lets move onto the next...
i mean honestly who would want a bunch of confused dramatic issues with no answers just piling up in their life?
ok so lifes a mystery..that dusnt mean every damn thing has no answer to it...isnt there a saying 'everything happens for a reason' and
is it a criime to actually want to know the reason...?

I mean we are all humans..we are different...we all have our different faults...and we all wantdifferent things...then why is it that sometimes
we are blinded by our own needs..our own pride...our own ways of handling things...and always thinkin that 'we do it better' 'we do it ryt'..
and just end up screwing sumthin utterly perfect??
why is it that we have to constantly be slammed onto a wall..to actually make us realize ...look your doin this the rong way..try
sumthin diffrnt mayeb that will work out for you...but no...again,,,blinded by our stubborness...go hit your self on the wall..dont worry buddy
theres a solution coming ryt back at ya..just wait and see...sheesh..

Lifes a circus...not every person will like the same clothes..not every girl will like the same boy...not every person has the same interests..
and not every problem can be solved in the same way...
its justa fact of life...or maybe its your perspective of things...or of life itself..
If you cant compromise...then maybe...you shouldnt get yourself into the mess at the inception of knowing that,
because in the end its not only you your dealing with...its other people too..others suffer too..
And thats where forgiveness comes in...and the result of it all determines,whether your relationship
is on the verge of a meltdown...or, growing stronger than ever...

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