Jaw Dropping; Awe Inspiring

Monday, February 22, 2010

Journal 17


Time, apparently when you have loads of it in your hands and you don't know what to do with it.. it makes you lazy, lethargic and someone completely lost... sleep comes hardly and when it does you just wanna lay there forever... because you know if you wake up there is absolutely nothing for you to do... you don't want that, so you dont get out of bed... you lay there.. and the thoughts of the most random things come rushing into your mind... you toss and turn... and try every way to get rid of them... but they won't leave you alone, because now you aren't sleepy or tire, so sleep wont come to you.. your left with thoughs of everything in your life....
it's the thoughts of your parents, the friends you talk to, the stuff you talk about, the problems you face in your relationship, the crush in school, the tons of issues coming up in your life, the limitless worries of sorting out your future, the background music you wanna stop listening to, the faces of people that matter and that don't matter... simply random thoughts...
Your then forced to wake up, cos now all you have is a throbbing headache and all you want to do is get rid of the thoughts..and have some strong tea...sigh...
Walking across the house, its a daze, like an out of body experience maybe... cos you don't know where your headed or where you want to go...and for a moment in time there isn't a single thought in your mind...and how you wish it would last...
Random moments in time and random moments of your day wasted on unwanted thoughts that you wish you could control, cos all it does is bring more confusion and ruin parts of your day...
Apparently peace of mind is a lot to ask for one self...

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