You Got Me

Losing my mind and my emotions is a feeling I crave for right now

You've got me sucked into a whirlpool of our very own world and I am loving every bit of it

The reality of it all isn't so good as it feels when it is with you, I can't block things out. I'm running out of energy to sweep things under the rug. I hardly think there's space under there anymore... How far can someone go on by just pleasing everyone else? I know I wanna be with you...youve got me right where you need me...you've got me stuck with you....me needing every inch of your soul and heart..and i cant leave now...not anymore without being torn and broken to a million pieces....

so what do i do now...?

Times come where i know i can do this..i can fight this...this battle between 2 worlds completely different but a world in which i am a part of...my heart is torn between a love so wonderful and a committment made from birth....

How can i feel so many emotions at one time? You've got me exactly where you need me....now i can't leave and i can't escape...even if i wanted to.... This is a blizzard of it's own...created by one's i know and think dearly of....I find myself...watching many of them disappointed and sad for so many reasons...caused by one thing...

how can u stop it all?

tears of so many people...when you know maybe something you could do might change it...but it would be giving up a part of yourself...and part of ur life that you so dearly cherish and need....

Why is the weakest made to give up the one thing they've found to be their stregnth and the most they've ever wanted and loved? Times come where i feel things seem to be goin haywire...I can't even pretend to be in control of my life...and it feels like the breaking point of everything that keeps me in place... What is life if it isn't meant for you to be happy? How far can you just keep living for others and pleasing others? You find yourself in a place thats so sad and miserable...you start wondering how it was even created in he first place...how you came to be in the middle of it all.....Regrets keep piling up and hurt n tears are the order of the day....you forget what you used to dream about life...what you ever wanted out of life...for yourself... You've got me stuck...youve got me right where you need me to be...coz I am lost but I'm safe....I feel so lonely but so loved... most days are cloudy and dark..and just plain lonely...but you still got me...you still have me fighting for life to have you...cos you're everything that keeps me sane...and willing...and filled with courage...
Times come where all this makes me feel like the most arrogant and selfish person....and whatever i want goes right out the window....but that's the one mistake i keep making....once again find myself moving in the direction of pleasing everyone else but myself....and that stopped keeping me satisfied some time ago.... Why is it so hard to be genuinely happy for another who has found an eternal happiness? Something that's so hard to find..and to maintain...

You've got me...right where you wanted me....and right where you needed me....
I keep falling....through all this..through the lonely nights...and the desperate days of wanting to break away from all of it....I'm falling right into your arms....